There are probably a few moms out there who are quite relieved that spring break is over and the kids are back to school. I am not one of those moms. I missed my little guy all day today.
I find myself revisiting the same emotions I felt four years ago when we were trying to decide where Avery would go for kindergarten. Parents and teachers were interviewed, schools were visited, fingernails were anxiously chewed. And then one day the real dilemma hit me hard. It wasn't that I was so nervous about where Avery would be going to school the next year, it was that she had to go anywhere. I wanted her home with me. We had a good thing going at home and I didn't want our family to be separated, even for just a few hours a day.
Of course this all happened before I found the courage and confidence to homeschool, and before my kids really started expressing a preference regarding their education. Over the last few years we have gone to two different public schools and have been involved with two different homeschooling programs. Four years, four schools. I'm sure that will look good on their permanent record.
Right now we are straddling an awkward fence, with one at home and one at school. It's difficult to find cohesion and consistency between these two very different schools. When it comes to the education of our children, it seems I still have the same dilemma I had four years ago. The one thing that hasn't changed is my personal preference. I want the kids at home. My courage and confidence to homeschool sometimes wavers, but my heart is always in it.
Thankfully, there are only two months left in this school year. There are options to discuss, possibilities to explore, and decisions to be made for next year. I'm just hoping our heads and hearts will lead us home.
Posted by Molly at 4:10 PM