The game was late.
The bleachers were cold.
The other team was
The game was exciting - I found myself on my feet cheering more than once.
And even though his team didn't win, he scored his first run of the season.
It was the perfect spring evening.
I read an interesting post on Kora Organics the other day, titled "Do You Give Your Power Away?" The first sentence got me thinking:
"WHEN WE BLAME another, we give our power away because we’re placing the responsibility for our feelings on someone else." Louise Hay
I'm so over blame. I no longer care who did what, who said what, and why. Why does there have to be a reason for everything that happens, a person at fault, someone or something to blame? Why can't we just let things be?
The person I spend the most time blaming is myself. I spend far too much time and mental energy devising excuses for myself. For example, when I'm driving Aidan to baseball practice, and we're running a few minutes behind, I'm mentally rehearsing good excuses for being late. Yes, sometimes my excuses include blaming somebody else so that I shift the responsibility from myself. The truth is that no one at practice is blaming me for being late. Most of the time, we're not actually late, just a few minutes behind MY ideal time to arrive.
I'm draining my own power by constantly making excuses for myself, and for blaming myself.
Sometimes I'm late.
Sometimes I'm slow.
Sometimes it takes me a long time to accomplish tasks.
Sometimes I place frivolity before necessity.
Sometimes I don't do what I'm supposed to do.
Sometimes I do exactly as I please.
No one is to blame, and no excuses are necessary. This is power. This is personal responsibility. This just is, and I'm learning to let it be.